Friday, 1 May 2009
You know how sometimes you just find it SO hard to believe in things.....yet you have to. It's what makes life meaningful. I may have changed, whether you think that is good or not. But inside, it's still the same me. Haven't I proven that to you? I try my best....u know i do. just maybe sometimes, i might bring things a little bit out of hand. create a drama, fuss, be hypocritical....etc. yet inside, i still love you guys....love you like anything. you make my life meaningful. dont leave me hanging....pls. i may sound desperate. i may sound like a wanabe. i may sound like a bitch, a slut, a whore. all these things. but inside, im still the wild me. tht little wild bit sometimes breaks out of the girly shell. especially when i see you and the others, happy, wild and laughing. everytime, right at that time, there's little yearning in my heart...its like tht little wild bit is tugging and everytime it manages to break through. then i feel so happy. i actually feel like the old me. but there are restrictions....like tht stupid skirt i have to wear, like the hairband tht keeps my hair neat....i want to get rid of them. but then there's another battle in my heart....the girly side and the wild side. eventually the girly side wins. I left it too late and now it's stronger than me. but i know i can make it. everyday, i try and fail. but the wild side knows tht it can win. so do i. and im gonna keep on trying. there's still that little but of bright hope....and just looking at it, just thinking abt it makes me stronger. i can do this.....i dont care if i will regret it in the future.....because i know ill have you....and that's all i care about. ily and forgive me....♥
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