Tuesday, 26 May 2009
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i always thought you were gonna be there for me, but i guess im proven wrong. I can't stand looking at us drift apart so im just gonna end it right now....im rly sry if this hurts u. but i rly dont want to get hurt anymore. i never believed in friendship or love before you came. but i guess.. now i just kinda lost all my hope. its just going back into tht boring bleary world. i dont like it, never did, never will. but in the colourful world tht im living in now just gives me too much pain. and thx, but i dont want tht. so...yea. its just a quick end. it'll be so much better for both of us. im sorry tht i kinda ignored u and ditched u and stuff. but i was trying to make it better for both of us. if we just drift apart it'll hurt less. im so sorry...i dont want it to be like this, but i guess its fate.............sry xxx.
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7:40 pm
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look, i dont want anything to do with u anymore...so dont come finding me and say i've ditched u and tht we're still in any kind of relationship....cuz there never was a "we", imy and everything we had but it turns out tht this whole thing was never rly meant to be.....
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7:26 pm
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Sunday, 17 May 2009
well today was just plain BORING coz there was no one to play wiv, ti was at church...the Ngai twins are still in Shen Zhen (i think)...Mrs.Star Meng is too lazy to talk to me, Leti is doing her hw....and im just....doing....uhm....being.....BORED. i wish i could be swimming....sadly....ive injured myself.... :(.
ily darling and im missing u like hell. come back to me before everything disapears.
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2:12 pm
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Saturday, 16 May 2009
uhm....hey ppl.....i havent posted for like.....DONKEY YEARS XD. i wanna change my layout.....hrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm okay..........ill be back with a new layout (hopefully) or a screwed up old one.... :) ly x
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8:40 am
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Saturday, 2 May 2009
As the girl stares at him...she wonders why he ever even liked her. He was a beautiful creature in her eyes. His smile, his laugh, his warm hug. Everything seemed so important to this little mortal girl....liitle did she know that one day...her heart would break because of him. Even the most perfect fairytales have their sad bits. For example...Cinderella is in love with the Prince. Yet she is just a mild, unimportant servant girl who was just dreaming. But dreaming was exactly what brought her to her Prince Charming. The most simpls thing to do in the world brings you a life long happiness. With the occasional heart break of course. There's an old saying that a wise king once told me: Without pain...there is no gain. You have to suffer for your future happiness. No one ever said how much. They only said you would have to suffer. That doesn't mean that if you want the affection of a teacher you need to go torture yourself to get her attention. It just mean that you had to work hard and be a good student. Some might say that this is easy but that's just because they already have this. You may say that getting the opposite gender's attention is easy but it may seem impossible for those people who only have their teacher's affection. As for other people, everything seems to be simple. But that may just be luck, or maybe they really had to work hard for this while you were playing or having fun. There is an explanation to this theary. And it is mearly: The cycle that hapiness goes in is, work hard at the start, you'll finish the race early, take it easy at the start, you may find yourself making it to the end early...but with a lot of effort. As for the people that try hard first will be prepared. Because they tried hard at the start. Once you're over that big push, everything will seem simple. So dont give up when your crush or your teacher doesnt like you much, It's all in the matter of time and effort. If you manage your time correctly and try hard and try smart...the rest will all be in God's hands. Enjoy life while you can, it WILL be gone in a flash....when you're feeling sad, take a step back and maybe, just maybe, you'll find that everything was right from the very beginning....u just weren't looking at it the correct way.♥
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9:38 pm
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Friday, 1 May 2009
ok....i just totally changed my layout....hmmmmm i wonder....i need to edit this stuff....hmmmm......
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11:51 am
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You know how sometimes you just find it SO hard to believe in things.....yet you have to. It's what makes life meaningful. I may have changed, whether you think that is good or not. But inside, it's still the same me. Haven't I proven that to you? I try my best....u know i do. just maybe sometimes, i might bring things a little bit out of hand. create a drama, fuss, be hypocritical....etc. yet inside, i still love you guys....love you like anything. you make my life meaningful. dont leave me hanging....pls. i may sound desperate. i may sound like a wanabe. i may sound like a bitch, a slut, a whore. all these things. but inside, im still the wild me. tht little wild bit sometimes breaks out of the girly shell. especially when i see you and the others, happy, wild and laughing. everytime, right at that time, there's little yearning in my heart...its like tht little wild bit is tugging and everytime it manages to break through. then i feel so happy. i actually feel like the old me. but there are restrictions....like tht stupid skirt i have to wear, like the hairband tht keeps my hair neat....i want to get rid of them. but then there's another battle in my heart....the girly side and the wild side. eventually the girly side wins. I left it too late and now it's stronger than me. but i know i can make it. everyday, i try and fail. but the wild side knows tht it can win. so do i. and im gonna keep on trying. there's still that little but of bright hope....and just looking at it, just thinking abt it makes me stronger. i can do this.....i dont care if i will regret it in the future.....because i know ill have you....and that's all i care about. ily and forgive me....♥
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7:38 am
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